SO FUCKING ANGRY NOW I COULD KILL SOMEONE. I DONT EVEN WNA EXPLAIN IT.

Sometimes, people are just so inconsiderate. Sometimes hard work doesn't pay off. We work harder than others but others get the priority cuz they're older/more 'experienced'/whatever. Shit happens, life's always unfair and all you have to do is suck it up. But fuck I don't even sing for the money? I mean, don't we sing because we like singing, because it's our passion, because we want to bless others with our voices and our songs? So just because of the money, some people are depriving others of their Christmas happiness? Don't you find yourselves selfish like that?

Purposely made the effort to reorganise my events, plan and arrange all my Christmas activities nicely so that it wouldn't clash, rejected my friends for Christmas outings cuz I knew my priorities, only to realise it's all in vain. You're my priority but to you, I'm just an option. Still, I'm not blaming anyone. I just think that those who organised this mess ought to be shameful of themselves. Whoever it is. Haven't been this angry for a long time. Thanks to everyone who tried to explain to me and made me feel better, regardless of whether or not you'll ever see this.

PLZ JUST GOD TEACH ME HOW TO FORGIVE JUST LIKE HOW YOU'VE FORGIVEN ME EVEN THOUGH I WAS SO UNDESERVING.

Ps: Gonna be a sleepless night tonight. My cramps and moodswings ain't making things better.