想知道你真的过得好吗
没有我也许是种解脱


2011 has come to an end. I have so much to say but I think I'll save it for tomorrow or smth cuz I'm really really too tired to think now I just wnna make this post a quick one.

So it was class chalet on the 28th. Met Mianny&Casper to go together, played cards at the chalet while waiting for the rest. Rented our bikes and then we dapao-ed food to eat tgt. Mian & I borrowed Joey's bikes to save $$$ but we ended up screaming like idiots from Joey's hse all th way back to chalet cuz it was so difficult to tompang each other HAHAHA


Started cycling at around 1230am, went to Mian's hse first at Tamp to send her home and exchange bike cuz Joey's rly cmi for me HAHA. I rode on Mian's stuntbike in the end and the seat was so hard my ass cramp all th way. Then our next stop was Bedok. Got hungry halfway though, so we stopped by Simpang for supper!!!! Roti prata ^^


Then we cycled all the way to ECP, slacked at the skatepark for awhile, and then to Jetty to enjoy seabreeze. Made our long way back to Changi. My stomach cramp halfway it was so terrible but thank God for my friends, especially Edwin who cycled behind me so that I wouldn't be left behind. Somemo everyone kept "Jolene feeling better?" "Stomach ok alr?" "Need rest awhile?" "You can anot?" like every few mins HAHAHA thanks guyz!


Then back to chalet, reached at 830am. So we cycled for 8 freaking hours seriously shag till cannot close mouth sia. Ass open flower already lor. Casper bought breakfast for me cuz my stomach still pain, while I slept :') Slept till 1pm, then to watch Sherlock Holmes! After that, shopped for bbq stuffz and we had our BBQ + breezer yayayayay like damn long nv touch alcohol alr~


Celebrated Jonathan's birthday after that, indulged in ColdStone icecream that Allen brought back from work, then Mianny & I left the chalet at 2am. Hehehe I love all of you people, 11S203! Meeting them again tmr for countdown! CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!! Today was just spent replenishing my sleep at home hahaha tmr will be the bombz ^^

也许在不同的时空
还牵着你的手


Changed my facebook layout a couple of days ago cuz I stumbled upon profiles of random friends and found the timeline thing rather cool. But after meddling with it for a few days, I realised it's so damn messy and I kind of dislike it now. BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE BACK OMG. How smart of you huh Jo -___-

Anyway, went to study at the airport with Jiaying today. Managed to complete a GP assignment yay us! Then after that we spent our time talking chatting gossiping htht-ing. Forever like that sia study session = study 10% talk 90% HA HA

11S203 chalet tmr :) Not exactly excited cuz I'm very very very tired. Been really busy during the Christmas period I'm so worn out already boo :( But ironically I can't wait to meet my dear classmates, feels like I haven't seen them in a long long while!

"You'll never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have."

等那天你才真的看透我们认真爱过
但这些又算得了什么


Used to it, so used to it. Used to all these nonsense that you throw at me every single day. I've been living with this for 17 years, what's new? It's not that I don't love you, don't want to obey you, but sometimes you just can't see that I've been trying, trying so hard since day1. All you see is my flaws, my imperfections, the wrong things I do. You've never given a damn about the things I do right. But I'm used to it already anw, often I just keep taking in your criticisms, your judgements, or even your beatings, I just tolerate, and tolerate, and tolerate. I don't even wnna utter a word or bother to argue. Doesn't mean I don't feel anything. I'm only human, I have feelings.

But...... Oh well, "You were only given this life because you're strong enough to live it". God gave me this life for a reason. Thank you mum, you've made me so much stronger.

忘了吧 曾经我们手牵着手说着以后
算了吧 你的承诺对我来说就像气球


Will be blogging about overdued post on 2CR chalet that happened about 2 weeks ago. Hmm, let me recall............. Met Abi & Aka after my caroling prac that day and went with them first, bought stuff for everyone, then Abi treated us to yummy icecream! Haven't had it in a long time ^^ Played cards over at the chalet while waiting for the others to come.


Walked and lepaked around at Ehub, had dinner and all before heading back to the chalet to wait for Huanda. The others left, leaving Jiaying & I as the only girls staying over. Huanda brought us to pasir ris park for nightwalk and abandoned us halfway -_- We couldn't find our way back, ended up at Elias Mall for supper. Took our own sweet time going back, reached chalet at like 2am or smth.




Watched some retarded movie till we fell asleep. Chua Jy & I were squeezing on 1 tiny mattress wlao poor us. Woke up with backache -_- Breakfast, then, to sell our WWW tickets! Reminds me of selling Toshiba laptops haha my salesgirl skills put to good use eh? Walked around after that and did a lil bit of shopping! Helped Aka to dress up too! AW THAT SEXY GIRL HA HA HA HA LAUGHED LIKE MAD SERIOUSLY



Went back for a swim hehe! Wanted to leave after that with the girls but Huanda didn't allow me to so they left me by myself with the guys. Dinner, talked, lepak, then Huanda sent me home.

It was quite an enjoyable 2 days spent with these group of people even though we were deprived of bbq food & always cracking our brains on what to do next! Thank Chua for overseeing everything and organising this getogether before our hectic j2 year~

说爱我的那一天 你疼我像个孩子
离开我的那一天 却让我更成熟点


MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!!!!

Spent my Christmas eve + Xmas with the family ♥
Happy birthday to the greatest father in the universe, my Papa Jesus!
我很忙, 就此搁笔.

不是学不会
只是觉得爱太美 值得去沉醉


Met Lorraine & Wesley for a short while at Tamp yesterday, then........ went out with Godma!!! It's been so so so so so so so freaking long since we ever went shopping together or even had a meal together. I brought her to Pasir Ris for a walk cuz she seldom goes there and she wanted to check out the new sports complex. Walked around for awhile, ate, went pasar malam.


I'm so thankful for my godma. So blessed to have her around. I need to cherish her more, much much more. She's that 1 adult, who truly loves me with all her heart. Many times I wnna tell her that I'm grateful for her, that I love her too, but I just have no courage to say all those stuff. So sometimes I just give her a warm hug. Hope she understands :')

She went home after that and I went off to meet Mianny for a double S session! Study+shop! HEHEHEHE managed to complete our 1st holiday assignment and shopping was quite fruitful also. As for today, I'm staying home to complete elearning :( But there's mahjong session tonight so......... yay for that!

我难过的是 放弃你 放弃爱
放弃的梦被打碎 忍住悲哀


I miss Taiwan........... I miss not having to worry about anything. I miss waking up excited about the activities lined up, shopping eating taking photos relaxing playing. I want another getaway. Away from this place, this place of misery, pain, and.............. memories.

Still find it hard to believe that the year is coming to an end in 8 days. Looking back at 2011, so much have happened. Just so much. Too much. But everything happened for a reason. And I've grown up a whole lot through these shit that life threw at me.

I have no new year resolutions for 2012. No hopes, no expectations, no wishes either. I'm going to welcome the new year with open arms and a bright smile. 2011's gone with the wind, much less 2010. Leave the past where it is, we move on, into a brand new year. No point looking back anymore Jo. No more regrets.

好的事情最后虽然结束
感动时分就有十分满足


Went to explore the new mall Katong L12 with Jiaying Aka & Chua on Monday! We attempted to study there but failed quite miserably cuz all we did was eat walk chat. Ok la managed to do some hw actually, since I consider 5 questions of chem as an accomplishment. What was funny was during lunch, I peeled prawns for Chua cuz he dumped all his prawns onto my plate. Figured out that he was lazy to peel himself, so I peeled, and he ate. The epic part came when during dinner, his father randomly told him "Never let a girl peel prawns for you" and he texted me about it I was like HA HA HA HA WHAT A COINCIDENCE!


Caroling at Eightrium on Tuesday morning went quite okay. The kids who watched us were mouthing Jingle Bells along with us they were so cute I was practically staring and observing them throughout our performance instead of paying attention to the conductor oooops! Rushed back home after that, bathed & ate at super speed and then rushed out to meet Lynette! We went to collect our pays hehehe ^^ Found out that we were the highest sellers omg awesome us! Lynette top seller, followed by me second whoopwhoop!! $344 for me yay yay yay rich+happygirls94 ;)


After which, met Mian & Casper for a little bit of shopping + dinner! They spent the whole time helping me to take out my extensions HAHAHA feel like a queen sia me~ Htht with them always feel so good. Came home at around 1030 last night and today's a stay home day. Need to complete at least 1 homework today, go Jo!

曾为他相信明天就是未来
越深的依赖 越多的空白

Sometimes I wonder how God feels, to see the very people whom he love so much, love someone else, worship someone else, and what's more, someone who doesn't even exist. For us, we may only experience 1 person doing so, perhaps our ex, or our crush. But for God, it's like whut, billions of people breaking his heart. And yet he can still give so sacrificially, love so unconditionally, forgive the people so undeserving. Just how great is our God.

Lifted up, defeated the grave
Raised to life, our God is able
In His name, we overcome
For the Lord our God is able

PS: Can't wait to see broken lives restored, lost souls become found, on Christmas

SO FUCKING ANGRY NOW I COULD KILL SOMEONE. I DONT EVEN WNA EXPLAIN IT.

Sometimes, people are just so inconsiderate. Sometimes hard work doesn't pay off. We work harder than others but others get the priority cuz they're older/more 'experienced'/whatever. Shit happens, life's always unfair and all you have to do is suck it up. But fuck I don't even sing for the money? I mean, don't we sing because we like singing, because it's our passion, because we want to bless others with our voices and our songs? So just because of the money, some people are depriving others of their Christmas happiness? Don't you find yourselves selfish like that?

Purposely made the effort to reorganise my events, plan and arrange all my Christmas activities nicely so that it wouldn't clash, rejected my friends for Christmas outings cuz I knew my priorities, only to realise it's all in vain. You're my priority but to you, I'm just an option. Still, I'm not blaming anyone. I just think that those who organised this mess ought to be shameful of themselves. Whoever it is. Haven't been this angry for a long time. Thanks to everyone who tried to explain to me and made me feel better, regardless of whether or not you'll ever see this.

PLZ JUST GOD TEACH ME HOW TO FORGIVE JUST LIKE HOW YOU'VE FORGIVEN ME EVEN THOUGH I WAS SO UNDESERVING.

Ps: Gonna be a sleepless night tonight. My cramps and moodswings ain't making things better.

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得


Ytd was caroling prac in the morning, then quality time with the family :) Headed down to Bishan to discuss about our new house and the interior designs. Hehe was quite fun and I'm excited about the new house! No more having to bear with all those sad memories whenever I step into my room or walk that path home.

Church service today was good, brought home something again as usual. This time, it's a heart of gratitude! Sure gonna live by that from now on :) Came home, was running a fever of 38.8 so I took a nap in the perfect weather. Was woken up by notifications from whatsapp & messages. That explains why I'm online now instead of resting.

Will be studying with the 2CR retards tmr if my fever subsides :) I BELIEVE I'LL GET WELL!!!!! Hehe go Jo! Thanks to sissy for taking care of me! Thanks Chua for praying for me too! Grateful for all of my friends, really. #nowplaying: 谢谢你们 爱我的每个人~

我找不到理由忘记 那么爱我的你
给我个理由放弃 当时做的决定


HAHA realised my previous post on Taiwan looked a little dull without photos but I'm too lazy to upload them on blogger since everything's already up on facebook. Shall just make do with it then! Sorry to whoever reads my blog :/

Just came back from chalet very late last night! Today's got to be a stay home day cuz I'm really overtiring myself already. Still sick too. Oh not forgetting my cramps will begin any moment from now. BIG FAT SIGH. Anw I'll blog about chalet probably after Wendy uploads the photos.



Went to help out in a kids camp on Tuesday with a few of my classmates as part of CIP. My partner was Edwin and we were stationed so far away from the rest that it totally bored us out :( HAHAHA it was quite funny when we kept attempting to entertain ourselves though! Some of the kids were quite adorable so I guess it's another good experience for me :)